happy november

song of the month
because i'm very clever.

my month thus far:

excellent new penguin socks.

painting while trying to write a blog post.

and thinking about last year.

because my university is most likely going to tear down my old dorm building in the very near future.

all the students currently living there have until sunday to move out.

my friends are homeless.

C2 won't exist anymore.  the place that holds so many of my memories won't exist anymore.

dear friends, i hope all works out for you, and that you find places to live.

love, jane.

how to be happy (today)

sleep late because i stayed out too late because sleep is my true love.

wear your cuddling hoodie and curl up in a blanket mom gave you.

watch the big bang theory. or the halloween episode of boy meets world.

get a free t-shirt from the student center. just because.

visit C2.  realize how much you've missed it and be happy you're back.  sit in the middle of the hall with smith, trevor, your roommates, and ridiculously cool ex-boyfriend.

have a big dinner with your neighbors, roommates, your family, and your roommate's family.

take someone's free t-shirt from earlier and put it on your head.  when it falls off, put it on the next person's head.  when it falls off, have them put it on the next person's head until it goes all the way around the room.

we're weird. don'tworryaboutit.

have your dinner party of 14 get locked inside your tiny college-kid apartment.  yell out your window for your neighbor who you've hardly met to help you.

have a roommate date.  talk about everything.

go to sleep wearing dinosaur socks.

someday, it's all going to work out for the best.

and someday i won't get broken up with the first week of school.

my marius is somewhere out there waiting for me.

college: a state of perpetual hunger.

i said goodbye to my parents
i unpacked all my pretty socks

behold the pretty socks (guest starring my feet)

...

our air conditioning got fixed

and with a few sheets as improvised couch covers, a rug, decorative pillows, a keyboard, and a thrift-store found photo of the eiffel tower,

our dingy living room was transformed into a comfortable, colorful room of awesome.

i walked to a bookstore and found no copies of les miserables.  i'll try again tomorrow.

and since i arrived, i've been in a state of perpetual hunger.

i guess college does that to me.

to combat it, i made pizza and cookies for dinner tonight.

i'm home.

lots of things.

lots of things are important.
things like cleaning my house.
looking for work.
blog-stalking.

such is my life.

these two things are most important today.

one, I have a deep love for socks.  but plain white socks are just the lamest thing ever.  these are pink with dinosaurs and hearts.  they are nothing short of perfect.

two, ronnie day is a gem.

I would like to thank my ridiculously cool ex-boyfriend for providing me with the album and endless hours of listening to 

"I'm in love with you

so I'll keep breathing just so I can do

everything you need me to

and I'm a slave for all of your antics

I'm just a slave

I'm such a romantic fool."

which is currently my favorite song on the album (living for love)

but it changes all the time, because the whole album is splendid.

(splendid is a good word)

anyway, as much as I love "living for love", it isn't the one that's been stuck in my head for two days.

so I'm giving you all the link and lyrics to the one that has. for your listening enjoyment.

I know life, and I know love

and this is neither of them

and you know right from wrong - well you've done wrong

but I will love again

whether or not it's you.

well if it's easier to cry then let go

cause you will see through tear-soaked eyes that I am here for you.

I'll be reading your notes in vain

they are novocain but lately I feel the pain

so the picture frames are coming down for now

I am weak, but I am proud

and if you are ever lonely again

just call my name

I know that you hate the way I work so long

I know you hate the way I wrote this song

stayed up till the break of dawn

but love is not a compromise

it's something like the rising of the sun

although you've seen it a thousand times

you can't explain it.

well if it's easier to cry then let go

cause you will see through tear-soaked eyes that I am here for you

and I will sing for you

a song so good you'll doubt I wrote it

and I will dance for you.

I won't step on your toes.

and I will laugh for you

you'll have no choice, you'll have to say "I need you"

but till then...

I'll be reading your notes in vain

they are novocain, but lately I feel the pain

so the picture frames are coming down for now

I am weak but I am proud

and if you are ever lonely again

just call my name.

as my life is oh, so exciting

(note the sarcasm)

music seems to be the main thing to bring me joy.

and not just ronnie day.

Today I finally tracked down the song that he deemed "song of the moment" when we broke up.

It's perfect. (though, I'm not sure why the video has 3 minutes of silence at the end.)

moral of the story: music is awesome.  I am definitely a fan.

also, my ridiculously cool ex-boyfriend has awesome taste in music:)